Uncertainty

I left my steady job in November. My health was in danger due to the stress of it all. I have left so many jobs over the years due to the stress, elevated blood pressure and blood sugar spikes. I somehow always find another job. During pandemic I was never without a job, even if it was temporary. I’d work six months on one assignment then six on the next assignment.

In this season I have not found anything job-wise. I’ve had about 3 interviews since November and I have filled out sixty plus applications. Anxiety, fear, depression, and angst have been in and out of my mind daily. I have been doing my usual resume work for people, along with editing here and there. FB and TikTok are monetized for me but not in a major way, I’m still building community. The bottom does not fall out for me! God consistently sends me love notes in the form of people. While my anxiety comes in waves, I am reminded that I am loved, I am valid, and I am necessary.

While each day holds uncertainty, I am not hopeless or destitute.